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why dad ? why did ya have to do it ? why ?????
the biggest mistake was leaving us dad . . .
i thought to my-self so many time's over the years that had passed by not seeing you was better for me . . . you trying to make me chose who i am here fore i wish i knew . . . i wish i did i wanted to make you proud like my brother did . . . but you always blamed me for this and that was it right nooo !!!! it made me confused , it made me uncertain i cryed ever time you came you dozed out of your own mind fore me im not here to apologize thats your fault that's what you did this is your fault your responsilbility not mine my part was done so many times i faulted my-self for my own stupifid pitty for you but i knew that you would never love me as your own daughter i was to light-hearted i hate that you munipulated me and just thought that you could yell at me in every way you shou.ld of stayed in the place you stayed so you wouldn't come home soo drunk huh i was emotionally , mentally , and verbally abused by you why can you not see that what ever you did then hurted me worse than it hurted that very morning when you woke and i wasn't there you told me to leave i left to protect my self from you so i don't know why you still call me your daughter any way and if any one reads this , this is my story to them about a little piece of my past that made me vunderable to my own father who never really thought of me if this is what he wanted this is what he gets for trying to be a great father i suffered fore many years i thought it could just be so easy to get away from but trying to forget the past is harder than i realized before i got help to let go and leave the things that were past memory's but they still haunt me i wish that i can forgive my father and tell him a early happy birthday but im not sure if i'll seem his own grave soon if he don't stop what he's still doing . . . im messed up from this . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . i thougth i got away from but the pain still hides in my heart form everything that i've gone through . . . im sorry . . . dad one day i will never make you proud . . . i know it . . . .
when can the hurt just end when can the pain fade to reams why can it not leave my mind every time why is it still shoved in my faced huh why you need to leave me alone oh yeah i wouldn't i want to bother me fore so much pain that came my way from you i don't want you back in my life even though you are my father i wish this never happened to me . . . i wished i never did but you can never change the past the past is the past . . . . .
emoxkitty added this comment 2010-07-31 14:27:08-05:00
i know how that is.. really... loved very nice
emoxkitty added this comment 2010-07-31 14:27:08-05:00
i know how that is.. really... loved very nice