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Every night I try to wash away the ugliness, but all that's left afterwards is dirty water. In the morning when I wake up, I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the person staring back at me. So I look into her eyes and try to find the person I once knew, somewhere lost in the dark. I have created so many different personalities that I can't differentiate between which of them I really am. It's no longer fun if you feel obligated to smile. My body is rattled with marks- marks of desperation. When I feel so lost and numb inside that I have to hurt myself to see if I'm still alive- If I can still feel! The air I breath suffocates me. It smothers me, makes me feel like I'm being slowely poisend! I wear a mask, so people won't see the bruised, old, tired face underneath. I hurt myself so I'll feel better about hurting others. The only reason I still try and do well in everything I do, is so that I can look down at other poeple and feel sorry for them rather than for myself. But in reality I'm actually just pushing away the reality that I am in fact the pitifull one. So ashamed of what I've become, that I hide in the shadows and only pop my head out every now and then to break someone down, or flash a convincing smile to hide away my secret. THIS is what I WAS. It took me a long time to change!
The Monster I was!
Copywrite Odette Smit
ashconzbbe added this comment 2008-07-04 08:01:51-05:00
nice
odie added this comment 2008-07-04 02:43:45-05:00
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soaringlighter added this comment 2008-07-03 08:33:05-05:00
Thanks for sharing, great concept
gadget added this comment 2008-07-03 02:36:11-05:00
fantastic glog,someone i know described very similar feelings to me recently,brilliantly done x
entryform added this comment 2008-07-03 02:27:17-05:00
Excellent
ashconzbbe added this comment 2008-07-04 08:01:51-05:00
nice
odie added this comment 2008-07-04 02:43:45-05:00
thank you very much everyone! i appreciate u all and ur thoughts on my glogs!
soaringlighter added this comment 2008-07-03 08:33:05-05:00
Thanks for sharing, great concept
gadget added this comment 2008-07-03 02:36:11-05:00
fantastic glog,someone i know described very similar feelings to me recently,brilliantly done x
entryform added this comment 2008-07-03 02:27:17-05:00
Excellent
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